Lately, I've been doing a lot of reflecting. Reflecting on who I am, who I have been and who I've wanted to grow into. It involved some introspection. I had to look inside myself to see if I'm living up to the woman that I was hoping to be at this point. In some ways, yes, in some ways, no. I believe that God is steering me down the right paths right now and that His grace is enough to get me through the rough patches. And, boy, have there been some ROUGH patches. I felt his presence with me strongly as I was taking my monster test and was reminded that the only thing keeping me from that assurance all the time is myself. I allow myself to focus on what the world focuses on: relationships, dating, grades, career, money, health…take your pick. In the end none of this matters.
I am reminded of Luke 6:31-34 from the SPV Bible (Sevahn’s Personal Version):
“So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ [or Who shall I date? or Will I get into medical school? or Can I afford gas? or Did I choose the right career? or Is my GPA good enough? or Do people like me?] For the pagans run after these things and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
That’s His promise to me, so I had better hold up my end of the deal. So I'm ready to enter the world of a medical school applicant full of confidence in the God who has brought me this far. He has been faithful and kept His promises and I LOVE Him for it.